Okay, here is a little glimpse into my early morning routine; I say this verse the minute my eyes open, before my feet hit the ground I lift this verse up, breath it in and claim it for the day ahead. Then I get out of bed and the dog knocks me into the wall (we have a big dog), the garbage didn’t get taken out last night and there are these things crawling around it that cause me to scream and not so nicely wake my husband and I wouldn’t call any of what is coming out of my mouth “rejoicing” Here’s the thing, I love that verse and everything it says and I want to live this verse Every. Single. Day. But, I don’t. What if I don’t feel like rejoicing, what if I don’t want to be glad in this just like every other day (for the record the little things crawling are not an every day occurrence). What then – am I a terrible person and can I just say out loud what if there is nothing about the day that causes reason to rejoice, I mean really laundry that covers the floor all of it dirty, dog hair that is on and IN everything including the fridge and I just cleaned that like, a week ago. I am lonely and tired and premenopausal and so really rejoicing and being glad – it ain’t happening, people. Perhaps if things changed a bit, if the dog was not so hairy and a bit smaller, if the garbage got taken out when it was suppose to be taken out, if someone could maybe help with the laundry that seems never ending, then maybe the words rejoice and glad would fit nicely into the day.
Then I read this: “My soul doth magnify the Lord” and I say “Oh”, out loud to no one but me. Mary says this very statement after she is told that she is going to be with child, engaged but not yet married and pregnant and she says that her soul doth magnify the Lord – this sounds a lot like rejoicing to me. She didn’t ask for God to pick someone else, she didn’t ask Him to wait until after her marriage to Joseph, she embraced the day the Lord made and rejoiced and was glad in it. She gave thanks.
Today is the day the Lord, THE LORD, has made I WILL rejoice and be glad in it because my soul doth magnify the Lord and this is reason enough. As I grab hold of this I feel a release of sorts, a freedom that reminds me that it isn’t about less laundry and less dog hair – although being honest the latter would be so great – it is about more of this and all the other things and being thankful in the midst. These things are gifts he has given freely to me, a family, a home to care for and time, TIME to care for it, for them and me. I should be saying thank you Lord! I don’t want any of this to change, I want to change, to embrace this moment and those to come and to say with certainty that Today is the day the Lord has made and I will indeed rejoice and be glad in it because my soul magnifies HIM and this is a thanks worth giving.
“Life change comes when we receive life with thanks and ask for nothing to change” Ann Voskamp