The New Year is almost here, just when I was getting use to the old one. This past year for me started off feeling like a new sweater – itchy and a little uncomfortable at first but then as time went on, I got familiar with it – knowing what it goes with, “how to wear it”. I have had a few years like this, not sure what the coming year will look like. I look back on the year I am saying goodbye to, remembering the moments that surprised me and reminded me that God is never surprised and always present. The moments that took my breath away and caused me to feel like my heart might never be right again. I start the year off wondering and end it often in wonder. Suzie has asked the question – find a word to carry into this coming year, a word that you want the year to be about and I thought I had one but then others started to enter my mind as well and then I wasn’t sure about which one was “the one”.
I want to be still – that was my first word but because of that word, like a gate being opened – other words came to mind What I really want to do, think I need to do this year, is be still so that I can experience God. I want to feel, and hear and see God at work in my life and in others lives this coming year. I want to take nothing for granted and receive everything as a gift and remember to say thank you at every offering, for the good and the hard. I want to laugh more, cry more and breathe in the things that are going on around me and say thank you a million times a day and not think that is an impossible task. I want to share the road I am walking on with those that are walking it too. I want to invite others along for the walk and share what we see and hear and try, together to make sense of it and understand it. I want to listen, to really hear others. I want to be patient with myself and with others. I want to love better and be angry less. I want to make new friends and make history with those friends so that we become old friends. I want to cry with friends and laugh with them and at myself. I want to enjoy being alone and be amazed at what God teaches me in those moments. I want my prayers to be deeper, full of Gods word. I want to know and understand Gods word more. I want to be a better wife and mother, sister, daughter and friend. I can do none of this if I am rushing, moving too quickly to see. I want to be still and wait on the Lord.
This year my word is still. I want to be still and see, feel and experience everything God has done and is doing and will do. All of it – the good and the hard. Something tells me this could be a really good year if I pay attention.
Show me your ways, oh Lord; Teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, For you are the God of my salvation; on you I wait all the day. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You. Psalm 25:4-5, 21