Vertical (Amber Agonia)


This time of year I start to reflect on how God has changed me through the years. No, not because it is a new year but because women’s retreat is coming.

I was like some of you who found women’s retreat disappointing and torturous. It took about 10 years for me to return to a retreat after my first experience. And to be quite honest, when I did try it again, it wasn’t that good.

However, I was convinced by some faithful and annoyingly persistent friends to give the retreat another chance. And… I loved it. What changed was my purpose and attitude.  Where I was going wrong was my vision was so focused on others that I lost sight of God’s purpose for me. My vision was horizontal and not vertical. The horizontal focus was more about how I didn’t like the discussion time, the women are too clicky, I can’t relate to the speaker, there are too many snoring women in my room, I could go on. Here is where you put in your complaint, I mean observation.

The year I started enjoying women’s retreat was the year my purpose went a little vertical. God had to remind me not to nitpick at every bothersome thing, but go with a purpose beyond myself. That year I simply went to go meet someone new. It was uncomfortable at first but when I realized God had me there for Him and not me it turned out to be enjoyable. My focus before was so about “I” and not about God.

Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. Colossians 3:2

We need to be focused on the way God sees things not on how we see things. In our long term goal, it really doesn’t matter who you eat with or room with or even what the speaker has to say.

Don’t get me wrong, I like the ease of having my friends there and a speaker who is amazing. But I also know that God doesn’t always make things comfortable, sometimes we need a little discomfort. What matters most is that your focus is on Him who desires to do a good work in you.

So Ladies, let’s get vertical.

One thought on “Vertical (Amber Agonia)

  1. Amber, spoken from a Godly heart, loved what you wrote and know it will encourage some women, it did for me and I love women retreats!!! Lets hike again?

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