“Here I am, Lord, send me.” This is one of my favorite passages in Scripture. Isaiah is in the presence of God and is taken back by his sinfulness in the light of God’s holiness. So, the seraphim touches Isaiah’s lips with coals from the altar and says Isaiah’s guilt is atoned for. Then, Isaiah literally overhears God talking to Himself, the Trinity, saying, “Whom shall We send?” And Isaiah immediately responds, “Here I am, send me.” How beautiful.
God doesn’t even ask Isaiah, yet he says, “Yes Lord, I would gladly go for You.” God didn’t say, “Isaiah, will you go?” instead He said, “ who can go?” Isaiah could so easily respond to the Lord before he even personally received the call because his heart was in tune with God’s heart. For some reason, I didn’t think my heart could be so in tune God’s, but He has been at work in me!
Last year was my first year to be a part of Royal Family Kids Club – a yearlong club/mentorship program for kids from the foster care system who have been to Royal Family Kids Camp before. My plan was to be a “club staff” – simply assisting at club once a month – I didn’t plan on “mentoring” a child. However, God had other desires.
Only a few days before the start of Club, I learned of the need for more mentors. My initial thought was, “Lord, raise up Your people.” But a brief moment later, I instead said, “Lord, why can’t it be me?” And immediately I knew this was what I was supposed to do. So I did – I accepted the call.
And though I definitely did not feel very “qualified” to be a mentor, I had the best qualifications possible for the position – the calling from the Lord Almighty who was working with me, in me, and through me. I had the opportunity to be Jesus to my mentee.
Several months later, in February, God worked it out in His perfect way for me to attend the women’s retreat. Though there were many things God taught me there, He was at work in my heart on so many different levels and in multiple ways.
At the closing session (I believe it was), they invited those of us who would like to be discipled by someone to stand up. I knew I did so desperately want this. And I stood. Then, they invited those of us – regardless of our age – who wanted to be the disciplers to stand up. For some reason, I felt the urge from God to do so. And I stood. Yet, after I stood up, I suddenly thought to myself, “Paula, what are you doing up here? You have no right to be standing – sit down!” But the Lord was speaking to my heart: “Who will go for Me to speak my words of truth and life to the women of the next generation? Who will point them to Jesus?” I truly desire to lead as I have been so led in Christ, “Yes, Lord. Here am I, send me.”
Christ says, “Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you….” The Lord is asking a question among the Trinity and if our hearts are in tune with His, we will hear what He speaks: “Whom shall we send to point the next generation to Christ? Who will go make disciples for Us?”
Here I am, send me!